Love is blind

my job,
doesnt require me
to change
my outlook...
and...
im
quite
happy abt tt...

if u think
that i ever
gonna run,
i just
wanna
assure you
tt i wun...

how wld
someone
bear to
leave,
someone
they
love...?

I loved at 12:35 PM 0 Comments

another fun night wif em...
poor baBy! so dumb!
n for her stupidity,
she ate 3 BIG chunk of fried salty sotong...
lousy! gwen is juz so smart! lol

the movie 13 dunno wat...
its so lame and funny!
haha...
baBy so cute.. coz she was so scare...
n also becoz she hugged me so tight.. lol

i miss u baBy!
muacK!

im not guilt-ridden...
abt wat happened in my story...
no it's just a blog...
right?

but still i needa say,
if u think tt im refering to anyone of u...
den mayb its my fault to blog...
but too bad everyone have their rights...
=\
=p

I loved at 4:26 AM 3 Comments

baBy now slping like a log..
due to late night slp again...
she is lucky to haf a gf like me...
coz i gave her a morning call!
thou i wanna give tt a miss...
coz this isnt the 1st time!
ANGRY!
everyone said she is punctual...
guess im more punctual...
im even more punctual den punctual!
=p
bleaH!

she is so sexy n cute lying there...
but im hot...
coz
the fan is facing her...
lame!
guess im just too bored...
waitin to bathe!

(baBy said, im getting fatter! no no sexy anymore!)
gonna slim dwn already...
so hurtful!!
=p

I loved at 6:24 PM 0 Comments

tell me the truth and i will forgive u...
if u wan to lie.. pls dun ever lemme kw...
hide from me forever...
so tt we can be tgt forever...
if u dun love me pls dun say i love u...
just say i like you will do...
coz i will wait till the day...
insecurity coz me to wonder n ponder...
forever seem so fornever...
just hug me thru the night...
all i need is to feel ur warmth...
hear ur beatin heart...
n touch ur lips with mine...

words are just words..
they are just meant for listenin...
not absorbing in any...
in the mind n heart...

I loved at 10:51 PM 2 Comments

she goes round convincing her frenz...
how rotten her gf is...
but do they kw how decay she is?
did they ask how real it is?
no.. they choose to listen to her...
one sided story...
yup... life is unfair...
somehow she kws it doesnt matter...
coz the truth will somehow surface...
it alwys happen...
n how she kws who are her frenz...

meanwhile she got herself another gal...
while she's still att wif her...
hiding from her...
lying to her...
coz she cudnt let her go...
but she told em tt its me who cant let it go...
but do they kw tt when she left,
she pulled her back...
this is when she starts to 2-time...

the story became drama...
so she lost it all..

n now she kws tt she had been lyin to her since the beginning of the r.s...
ironically thru tt gal...

even at the end,
she still wanna try to lie her way thru...
when the truth is so right in da face...
she
possess a character of a gemini...
split personality...
to the girl,
she spouted all the wrong things abt her...
to her,
she did the same...
wat is she tryin to do...?
n prove?

to gain support and make ppl side her?
n of coz she won...
wif her mind like puzzle,
no one cudnt figure out until when all seen the whole picture..

all along u wanted be famous..
wanted to be knw...

n she learnt... being kind,
doesnt pay...

coz she goes rnd telling ppl...
tt all she wanted was revenge...

revenge? it's time consuming...
yawN~

she shld've kw tt right from the 1st day they met,
the game,
the qns of fallin in love wif 2...
show smtg...
what happened once will happen twice...
change?
she, herself
said b4..
a leopard will nv change its spot...
how true...

a liar will alwys be a liar..
same goes to someone who cant fail to flirt...
go on plotting ur mind games and stories...

I loved at 10:05 PM 0 Comments

went to eat at amk new york...
her frenz were damn funny!
with all the cold jokes...
the pie was really nice n delicious... too bad im on diet! haha...

headed hm after tt..
wanted to bball but too bad...
it was cancelled off..

tdy i went hm early.. coz i wanna eat my mama's cookin...
it've been a long time since i've hm cooked food...
beside viv's mom... haha...

the night was fruitful.. haha...
=p
ya so cute! muacK!
i love u! n the skin on skin feeling.. wow...
thanks for sendin me hm...
=)
muacK~
love ya...

I loved at 9:49 PM 4 Comments

baBy! she cooked breakfast-lunch for me tdy!

wow! its nice la... =)
and make ribinna for me me me...

thanks alot.. n now im really getting FATTER!!

all thanks to u!!

went to bike shop...

choose colour...

it will be nice!!

got there will be zee n vvian!

and adidas too... =p

im so anxious to see it too!

went for hair cut...

hm.. kinda shorter den b4...

coz abit was been shaved?

n stupid baBy keep makin fun of me!! ggRRR!

had our dinner,

den went to meet eliza n frenz...

the usual ppl were there...

were having dinner at far east...

hm... yummy!!

den baBy said smtg to me...

n im quite happy to hear tt...

but are those words just for me?

have u whisper em to anyone?

still im quite happy to recieve those words of urs...

den

went to buy boxers...

she chose for me...

haha...

den headed hm.. too darn tired already..

n tml, we haf got lotsa things to do..

wooo hooo~~~

ARGHFHHFH!! im gettin fat!! help help!

hey HEY!

pulling other ppl down doesnt make u high up there ya kw?

ya big enuff to kw tt.. dun cha?

there's my hair...

n baBy pls dun put those ugly pics of me!

all thanks to ur gd cam, this is the clearest!

it's still long! =p

I loved at 1:03 AM 5 Comments

so we had talked abt it...
n u came n surpised me wif ur 26 SECOND voice msg...
n kinda flooded me wif ya msgs...
hm... soo sweet n mushy! haha...
can feel my goosebumps popin! =p

i was thinkin of a nice breakfast b4 interview...
coz u kw.. empty stomach...
n so u granted my wish.. unexpectedly,
i saw ya at my blk!
at tt moment, i wanna faint...
haha.. so sweet can??
den i saw BREAKFAST!! YUMMY!!!
ok.. so u brought 4 of the differ flavours...
tuna, mushroom, bacon and chicken!
wow...
u so evil! force me to eat.. coz u said...
wanna fat fat tgt...
but dear gal,
im already fatter den u n u still wan me to grow...
n now im really growin! so plss..
stop feeding me!!
gRRR!
ROAR!! =p

we went interview tgt...
she waited at a place where there is a dirty old chair n fall aslp.. so poor thing...
ok.. u r so GREAT!
so we took bus...
n headed hm...
n u slp like a log...
haha...
so i went ahead to do my things...
and baBy! u slept for like 3 hrs..
cosy rite? hehe

so we went eat...
den sheesha...
i've huge craving...
coz i've not been smoking like sat, sun, mon...
hmmm... 3 days... record...
at least sheesha is healthy rite?
lalalala~~
so am i consider non smoker?
i dunno... hahaha...
improvement at least...
i quit juz for ya... =)
like i alwys say, u worth all the effort...

so we headed hm AGAIN!
coz we decided to jog...
me, 2 rounds... smoker ma rite? haha
was quite taken aback tt i can run 2 rounds.. haha
her, nb... 4 rounds... irritating...
dotz...
=)
WOW LA!

send her hm.. raining raining heavily...
lorry also not bad rite? hahaha
=x

oh ya! she is so damn funny tdy..
pinCh pinCh~~

after so long story,
you are forgiven la...
how cud i bear to see u cant slp at night again?
=x
lalalala~
haolian rite?
k la...
satisfaction!

i love u!
muacK!

tdy, this is wat i called love...
n finally, i feel smtg... =p

I loved at 3:19 AM 2 Comments

wishin the ans will be positive...
lie a lil pls i prayed...
but still, its best tt the truth is out...

findin solution will be the best...
running away is tiring...
coz its still chasin...

i will still stay...
if its doesnt come...
and leave if u wan me to...

cant feel,
cant see,
cant reach...

where do i belong n stand?
perfection alwys come wif flaws...

I loved at 2:37 AM 2 Comments

smt thing happen so fast tt
u dun even kw if its real...

afraid of trusting
the wrong person again...

wats beneath the mask?

I loved at 4:21 AM 0 Comments

baBy no more bike already...
so tt tt tt swinger was the 1st u ride...
gosh... wttt...
later on, she gonna get a new bike...
fast! n i got a shock! haha...
coz its really really too fuckin fast...

[COMPLAINS]
she headed to her dota when we reached hm..
=/
so so so... hmmmm.... gamer rite?
nvm...
dinner at her room,
i ate alone..
so poor thing rite?
thou she got acc me...
awhilee....
smacK smacKK~

den we headed to meet jo, cheryl, gwen n her bf...
den pool...
n so we won...
(jo n gwen) 4 v 5 (viv n ME! PHEW~~)
we're so so lucky...
(im getting sucks! zzzz!!)
the dare was tt..
they gotta use their big butts to write "I SUCKS"...
infront of mac counter...
n so viv had video cam it...
haha...
its funny... esp towards the end... well well...
can try checkin it out at..... hmm...
cheryl's blog...? haha!

den we had our dim sum at "wang jiao" wch was intro by px..
the dim sum is really really woooooooooOOOOO~

den we went to changi village...
to see the "girls"...
its really fun...
esp with em arnd,
they are so funny can?
hahaha...

so baBy dropped me 1st...
im so so tired...
but still im gonna wait for her to reach hm safely 1st...

she is really sexy~
gosh!
muacK~

I loved at 3:58 AM 2 Comments

im really tryin veri hard...
im sorry...
i kw i can do it..
n yet i dun...
i've my flaws too...
but im really willing to give it a try...
and i kw i can do it..
n i will do it...
dun be upset k?
pls pls pls....
=/

ok! tdy we took quite a num of shots.. haha...
its finally getting beta and beta...

tdy...
oh... i mean yday...
time spending wif u is spendid!
yeah.. of coz..
coz my frenz said..
im getting fatter... =/
its time to stop "junking"!

I loved at 12:54 AM 2 Comments

she stay over night...
well.. its wonderful...
w.o my throat irritation,
i wud haf hug you...

den over her hows,
we were sending resume...
plucking my armpit hair..
n its kinda pain now..
again! she nv finish the other side!
ggRRrRr!

bball time!
she is so strong can?
my hands are feelin weak...
nvm.. shall win her next time...

dota agaiN!!
but nvm..
so i snored!
=p

=(
den she drove me home...
now im feelin so empty!!

now then i kw.. it started since the day i grad... or even b4...
ya such a ..........................................
fill it up urself...
coz it will be unpleasant if i were to rant...
n i kw i shldnt waste it on ya...

I loved at 1:49 AM 2 Comments

sorry baBy! forgive me k? it wun happen again... i swear to u!! im just being tooo careless... ya really sweeeeet! thanks for fetching me... i love u! =)
really sorry!!

see my pics? forgive me k? plsssss!

I loved at 1:52 AM 1 Comments

you're really an expert in readin ppls mind...
wat can i say...
=]

the past is the past...
we shldnt talk abt it anymore...

coz i love the way we're now...

2 more side bets to go...
=p

I loved at 1:14 AM 2 Comments

she was dota-ing, and i was sleeping...
i dun even haf a decent lunch~ ROAR!! (copy U!)

we went bball wif em...
and was having great great fun...
playin abc.. baBy... was doing so so "well"...
=p =x
i was damn lucky.. coz i didnt really get to pump...
heh heh... pro yeah?

and so we chatted...
blah blah blah~~

hey baBy where's my comment from my previous blog?
dota-ing rite?
grrRRR!

i love U!!
kw tonight u r going to be slow...
so i went ahead to bathe...

- unwell -
=/

ohhh ya....
can u just wear tt?!
when ya gonna wait till?
next year?

I loved at 2:55 AM 4 Comments

overnight at my baBy's hows..
tdy is a special day,
its 2 plus now...
so is yday..

yet both of us are sick...
=/
i love u so so much...
hope u like the gift...
coz u look like u dun like it...
well well...

i love u...

muacK--

I loved at 2:26 AM 2 Comments

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but
I just don't see the signs I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again I guess
I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

cant believe tt im in love with someone who was the reason of my breakin heart...
=p

I loved at 12:38 PM 2 Comments

its great...
heavenly...
good-est!
=p

i dunno why i cant do...
not confident enuff i think...
where have it gone to?
o.O

i just dunno how to...

thanks for coming over...
=)
its so nice to see u by my side...
and sorry for troubling u...
how i wish ya stayin near me...
muacK-

dun alwys ask me wat is in my mind...
coz sooner or later u will kw why...

I loved at 2:43 AM 5 Comments

my sexy baBy, what took you so so long to come over? =/
i miss u...
hug!

I loved at 10:14 PM 0 Comments

this song just play...

why does the song Look What You've Done always remind me of u...?

the thot of u only remind me...
of
the achievement look in ur face when i believed in ur tales...
lying w.o a trace of guilt...

teach me...
how can u stare into your lovers eyes...
and lie?
you are so none of wat ya protraying...

I loved at 2:27 PM 0 Comments

its so nice to kiss ur lips...
to feel you, to touch you
and to hold you...
all the hugs seem so meaningful again...
i thot, i wun feel it again...

a torch tt hides so deeply and so long between us,
has become a flame that is burning so fiercely...

its just so nice sitting beside you and stare at you...
kwing tt you'll soon become my lover...
...thrilled my soul...
... so strongly...

how ppl think and feel,
it doesnt matter much anymore...

muacK-

so now u've found a new lover...
den why do u hurt urself wif the steely knife...
to remind u of the lost love?
or greediness that cause u to lose it all...?
all along ya such a swinger...
who crave for only sex...
love to u is just a business afterall...

true.. i haf no rights to say...

u cried and im there for u...
yet you are talkin bad abt me...
stabbing your knife like darts...
so freely...

im hoping i do feel smtg abt it...
and wondering why i dont...

I loved at 2:08 AM 3 Comments

surpisingly i feel ntg...
mayb becoz its da past...
and who really care abt the history?
its all the present and future...
coz u dun see time moving backwards...

my love?
wldnt be any less...
muacK ~

- naiviv -

I loved at 1:23 PM 2 Comments

still pending,
to read it or not...

if i read, will all the good become negative?
if i dun, there will be so many question wondering in my mind...

the reason tt brought us tgt can also be the reason tt we part?

the night spent was really great...
its really a big big big WOW!

i miss you...

I loved at 3:35 AM 4 Comments

avoiding is a solution to all the problems and questions...
not knowing anything,
save a lot of unwanted troubles...

at least i dun haf to think so much...
=]

I loved at 2:15 AM 1 Comments

the chocolate so so nice! wow!
so so many ppl kw i love chocolate,
but why none bring me there?
=)

its so nice lyin beside u and hugging you...
the triggering was damn nice.. but den....
i managed to swollen my desire dwn!!
heh heh!!

i love the way you kiss!
wow!!
i want more!!!

I loved at 3:25 AM 2 Comments

insecurity surround me..
afraid of being another em...
afraid of you dun really like me...
afraid of you cant get involve wif me...

the kisses, were a big wow...
the touch of you thrill me...
holding your hand, was really heavenly...
it just boost up the love...

just tell me,
you feel the same...
can you?

I loved at 2:08 AM 2 Comments

it was really a big surpised!
she is so so sweet can?
=)
no one have ever given me such a surpise!
the thot of it, juz bring a smile to my face...
gosh!
its so hard to express how i feel...
im lost for words!

so she gave me two coaster (i dunno if its spell this way)... =p
its the thots tt count!
dun worry...
so now im going to place it beside my com, to remind me of u!
it written love! WOW! hahahaha...
n there is a small tag tt state "Thank you for sharing our joy"
sweeeeeeeeeeeet! lovely! =]

im so so tired!!
tml, we will be meetin AGAIN!
=)
i lookin forward! muacK-

I loved at 3:49 AM 2 Comments

if things were less complicated,
maybe there wun be a need to hold back...

if only im not so shy,
maybe i will give u the kissses...
on ur lovely cheeks...

if time cud just goes a lil slower,
if only im not tired,
i wud like to stay just a lil longer...

if only we cud meet tdy,
maybe i wun choose to work...

if only i cud read ur signs,
mayb i wud kw wat how to handle...

i love to ride wif u...
coz thats the only time i cud be near you...

are all these for real?
or it is just another gimmick?
tt i wud love to fall in it...

why is there so much disturbance?
gRRRR...
there is no way to shove em off...
=/

I loved at 3:51 AM 2 Comments