What has love
Got to do
With

Morality?

Tuesday, January 29, 2008:::

my frenz asked...
why i've become like tt...
this isnt me...
i say i kw...

i thot loving u is easy... but its only getting harder after each row...
i thot u are understanding... but only to friends...
i thot u are compassionate... yup... but only to friends...
i thot you are the girl of my dream... yeah... but i think im just holdin on to the past...
tts y im holding to you...

im not going out tml either you said... i dunno y tt doesnt concern me...
im sick of all these you said... hello... i feel ten times of tt...
im not gonna follow ur swings... i'll go my own way...
lets break... you ALWYS say...
im the one who do the make up after each breakup...
when my love faded u pressurize me...
go to the extreme by sayin u wanna be promiscuous...
when u announce tt so firmly... i wanna let go.... all i hear frm u is... u dun love me...
im still try my best... to salvage... due to someone encouragement...
apart of me already kw i really dun wan... im so so so fuckin tired...
when urs fade? i need to be sweet...
muz tolerate all ur scolding and shouting... darn!!!
give u TIME... u say... so i try to be sweeet... i kw i had treated u nicer...
but i heard a replied... u alwys nv do anything sweet... HAHA...WTF?
ur effort will nv be appreciated... this is how i feel constantly...

have you wonder u really make me feel so numb?
cant deny it's saddening...
when i realised tt..
alil pain im feeling...
n yesh.. im sad...
i wun do the things i used to do...
im not holding u back...
i have a gal who nv chat wif me on phone...
thruout the conversation, tml she will be askin me the same qn again...
watever i say u nv listen AT ALL...
either u are dota or chatting wif others online...
im sick of being so insignificant...
not a lil respect u show me...
any changes u wan me to make.. just tell me...
all i heard is breakup...
and u being ANGRY!!
i need to pacify u...
im tired of being sorry...
sad...
angry...
pacifying...
i am not that good...

n dun you worry.. u wun get my call for patching up...
wun recieve my sms sayin im sorry... n pls forgive me...

i will now tell u... we gonna be frenz...
bestest friend...

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