Love is blind

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When it's not alright
When it's not ok
Will you try to make me feel better?

Will you say alright? (say alright)
Will you say ok? (Say ok)
Will you stick with me through whatever?
Or run away
(Say that it's gonna be alright. That it's gonna be ok
Don't run away, don't run away)
Let me know if it's gonna be you
Boy, you've got some things to prove
Let me know that you'll keep me safe
I don't want you to run away so
Let me know that you'll call on time
Let me know that you won't be shy
Will you wipe my tears away
Will you hold me closer
When it's not alright
When it's not ok
Will you try to make me feel better
Will you say alright? (say alright)
Will you say ok? (Say ok)
Will you stick with me through whatever?
Or run away
(Say that it's gonna be alright. That it's gonna be ok)
Say OK
(Don't run away, don't run away)
(Say that it's gonna be alright. That it's gonna be ok, don't run away)
Will you say OK
(Say that it's gonna be alright. That it's gonna be ok)

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Call me out
You stayed inside
One you love
Is where you hide
Shot me down
As I flew by
Crash and burn
I think sometimes
You forget where the heart is

Answer no to these questions
Let her go, learn a lesson
It's not me, you're not listening
Now, can't you see something's missing
You forget where the heart is

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay

Waking up from this nightmare
How's your life?
What's it like there?
Is it all what you want it to be?
Does it hurt when you think about me?
And how broken my heart is

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay

It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend

Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay, and forget where the heart is
Someday if ever you loved me you'd say, it's okay

It's okay
It's okay

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startin from the time when we have our regular breakups...
do u kw each time i hug u...
in my mind i wonder when will it happen again...
so i start to hug u like there is no tml...
i start to treasure every kisses...
every moment...
and every love we made...
i cried...

i try to be wat u want...
at time i flare...
i admit its my fault...
when will u admit urs i wonder?
i cried

i ask myself constantly...
issit really my fault...?
mayb it is...
so i give in still...
i cried...

i wan to tell u all the unhappiness tt i feel...
but breakup is wat i fear...
so i keep all the sorrow within myself...
i cried

u say u wanna play...
coz u feel that u haven play enuff...
i cried...

u ask me not to tok to em...
but u started to tok to em...
addin ppl in dota...
u said she is flirt...
but ur just makin frenz...
i cried...

maybe u do it subconsciously...
but this is wat i guess...
coz there are so many subconscious things that u had done...
we chatted these b4...
im getting insecure...
i cried...

maybe we miss out chatting on phone...
when u start gaming...
i dun understand u at all...
lesser time spend tgt...
thou most of the time im just beside u...
beside u watch u gaming...
i cried...

i din wan to call u tonight...
coz i kw im gonna be attitude...
due to all the things accumulated...
i din wan another breakup...
im just makin some peace...
but u call..
my feelin reveal...
i cried...

i say i wanna chat wif u on phone...
due to my attitude...
i was being told off by u again...
rudely...

you said...
dun disturb me can?
i wanna watch my tv...
y do i alwys feel tt im so not impt?
i try to give in...
i try to hint...
tt couples need to tok...
readin your msg...
i cried...

after the 1st hang up...
i pick up my call...
coz i call ur hse using cell...
so i ask u to call...
rudely i was being scolded again...
i accidently let out a cried sound ...
but i heard ur voice...
it was not hang yet...
panicky i hung the phone...
coz i thot u hear my cry...
but u din...
i kw... coz i recieve ur angry msg...
i was relieved...
i told my frenz...
she call...
we chatted quite awhile...
still i din get ur call or sms...
i was pouring out to her...

i was hoping she cld say smtg nice...
all i heard was why u wanna continue...?
are u happy?
where is ur pride?
she treated u like this...
why u still hang on?
she is young...
this is her...
she wanna play...
she doesnt cherish u...
if she do she wun break wif u all the time...
she might be juz treating u as frenz...
(i kw it is nt.. PLEASE SAY SMTG THAT MAKE ME HOLD ON PLS!!!)
foolishly...
i hope she can say smtg tt make me strong...
make me see the reason... to hold me on to u...
all i recieve are ur cruel smses...
wat if its me who said all these to u...?
i cried...

i try to tell u abt how i feel...
i heard breakup...
this is me...
guess we are not compatible...
but i was hanging on to wat u said b4...
anything u are unhappy abt me...
tell me...
i cried...

the more i try to make it work...
the more i cant let go...
guess it is getting easier...
for u now...
i cried...

i kw when i blog abt this...
u will break with me...
in ur mind u kw we cant make it so wats the point of staying....
i cried...

coz in mine...
i just wanna try my best to give u all that u need...
change all my bads...
so i keep on perusing the nv satisfying love...
i try to keep my calm...
but u go arnd flaring wif me...
i cried...

i tried to voice out...
but i got shut down...
i try to change...
but u cant see anymore...
i cried...

u said...
1 bad...
equal to 10 good...
i cried...

if i make a mistake there it goes...
just like tdy...
i need more understanding...
i need more of ur attention...
i need u to hear all my sorrows...
but all i see is u running from me...
i cried...

can u tell me ur will not be so hot temper towards me...
can u tell me u will not ever breakup wif me...
can u tell me we can pull thru all these...

all tt i had been doing issit nt enuff?
can u put urself in my shoes...
feel how i feel...
see my fear...
taste my pain...
and the heavily wounded heart?
i cried...

i kw it i publish this,
this will be the end...
i cried...

i dun wan to have any breakup anymore...
coz a part of me still wan u...
i cried...

till now i still haven recieve any msg n ur call...
i cry...
but there is no more tears...
anymore...

watever i do...
breakup is all i recieve...
issit becoz of me makin it easier for u to treat me like this?
so fierce, so crude and so ridiculous time..
i need a lil sympathy...
tt u give ur frenz...
can u see that im scarred all over...
can u see that im tearing...
do u kw how many silent tears i shed?

humans are nv satisfied says:
sms u oso nv reply
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
ya?
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
u still angry
humans are nv satisfied says:
funny right
humans are nv satisfied says:
i call u then u kup my phone
humans are nv satisfied says:
nv even tell mi wad happen
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
ntg happen
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
=]
humans are nv satisfied says:
funny right?
humans are nv satisfied says:
knn
humans are nv satisfied says:
can u dun lie anot
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
really ntg
humans are nv satisfied says:
zz
humans are nv satisfied says:
u make mi feel llike wadeva la
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
the show finish?
humans are nv satisfied says:
ya
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
kk
humans are nv satisfied says:
we break up?
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
y?
humans are nv satisfied says:
i cannot take it wen my gf keep things from me so i dun wish to go on
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
hm...
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
lil things only...
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
n there is ntgim keeping... no = no break?
humans are nv satisfied says:
wad u talking
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
im not keepin anything la
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
silly
humans are nv satisfied says:
forget it la
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
y din u call me ?
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
like now?
humans are nv satisfied says:
lol
humans are nv satisfied says:
y shud i?
humans are nv satisfied says:
i dun wish to let ppl kup my phone again
humans are nv satisfied says:
send sms talk to me lata
humans are nv satisfied says:
n nv tell mi wad happen
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
y the way u tok so crude now?
humans are nv satisfied says:
dunno
humans are nv satisfied says:
i feel u are juz taking back at me
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
i nv kup ur phone anymore...
humans are nv satisfied says:
its ok if u wan to keep things lo
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
u also...
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
like u say small lik things dun haf to say
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
n u say wats now...
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
u think ppl will say? if it's u?
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
will u say?
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
u kw wat fuckin happen?
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
do u kw????
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
haf u use ur heart to feel me????
humans are nv satisfied says:
??
humans are nv satisfied says:
i'm asking wad happen now wad
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
rudely
humans are nv satisfied says:
ok fine
humans are nv satisfied says:
i dun disurb u

i cry...
another steely knife of urs...
(after u re-read all these... how do u feel? wat if the role is switch...? i dunno how to show u ur attitude towards me... im sorry... it might be my fault... i really dunno anymore...)

y din u ask...
guess after reading...
u will kw...
it's so hard tokin to u baby...
i was hoping u will ask...
i realise im so stupid...
like a fool...
i wun say goodbye... i nv will...
coz once i say...
i kw i will be askin u back...
and i really dun wan too...
im so fucking bloody hurt...
tt smt i dun even kw why im askin u back...
im so hurt tt i cant feel love...
but i dunno why i stay...
when we are back, i cried silently...

mayb...
i cant bear to...
but now if i dun let go...
more hurts will come...
u make me feel that i cant share and tell you things
abt me...

i cry....

again...

guess u r rite...
tt this is the best for us...
coz u r alwys

rite....

walking a way.....

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