Love is blind

startin from the time when we have our regular breakups...
do u kw each time i hug u...
in my mind i wonder when will it happen again...
so i start to hug u like there is no tml...
i start to treasure every kisses...
every moment...
and every love we made...
i cried...

i try to be wat u want...
at time i flare...
i admit its my fault...
when will u admit urs i wonder?
i cried

i ask myself constantly...
issit really my fault...?
mayb it is...
so i give in still...
i cried...

i wan to tell u all the unhappiness tt i feel...
but breakup is wat i fear...
so i keep all the sorrow within myself...
i cried

u say u wanna play...
coz u feel that u haven play enuff...
i cried...

u ask me not to tok to em...
but u started to tok to em...
addin ppl in dota...
u said she is flirt...
but ur just makin frenz...
i cried...

maybe u do it subconsciously...
but this is wat i guess...
coz there are so many subconscious things that u had done...
we chatted these b4...
im getting insecure...
i cried...

maybe we miss out chatting on phone...
when u start gaming...
i dun understand u at all...
lesser time spend tgt...
thou most of the time im just beside u...
beside u watch u gaming...
i cried...

i din wan to call u tonight...
coz i kw im gonna be attitude...
due to all the things accumulated...
i din wan another breakup...
im just makin some peace...
but u call..
my feelin reveal...
i cried...

i say i wanna chat wif u on phone...
due to my attitude...
i was being told off by u again...
rudely...

you said...
dun disturb me can?
i wanna watch my tv...
y do i alwys feel tt im so not impt?
i try to give in...
i try to hint...
tt couples need to tok...
readin your msg...
i cried...

after the 1st hang up...
i pick up my call...
coz i call ur hse using cell...
so i ask u to call...
rudely i was being scolded again...
i accidently let out a cried sound ...
but i heard ur voice...
it was not hang yet...
panicky i hung the phone...
coz i thot u hear my cry...
but u din...
i kw... coz i recieve ur angry msg...
i was relieved...
i told my frenz...
she call...
we chatted quite awhile...
still i din get ur call or sms...
i was pouring out to her...

i was hoping she cld say smtg nice...
all i heard was why u wanna continue...?
are u happy?
where is ur pride?
she treated u like this...
why u still hang on?
she is young...
this is her...
she wanna play...
she doesnt cherish u...
if she do she wun break wif u all the time...
she might be juz treating u as frenz...
(i kw it is nt.. PLEASE SAY SMTG THAT MAKE ME HOLD ON PLS!!!)
foolishly...
i hope she can say smtg tt make me strong...
make me see the reason... to hold me on to u...
all i recieve are ur cruel smses...
wat if its me who said all these to u...?
i cried...

i try to tell u abt how i feel...
i heard breakup...
this is me...
guess we are not compatible...
but i was hanging on to wat u said b4...
anything u are unhappy abt me...
tell me...
i cried...

the more i try to make it work...
the more i cant let go...
guess it is getting easier...
for u now...
i cried...

i kw when i blog abt this...
u will break with me...
in ur mind u kw we cant make it so wats the point of staying....
i cried...

coz in mine...
i just wanna try my best to give u all that u need...
change all my bads...
so i keep on perusing the nv satisfying love...
i try to keep my calm...
but u go arnd flaring wif me...
i cried...

i tried to voice out...
but i got shut down...
i try to change...
but u cant see anymore...
i cried...

u said...
1 bad...
equal to 10 good...
i cried...

if i make a mistake there it goes...
just like tdy...
i need more understanding...
i need more of ur attention...
i need u to hear all my sorrows...
but all i see is u running from me...
i cried...

can u tell me ur will not be so hot temper towards me...
can u tell me u will not ever breakup wif me...
can u tell me we can pull thru all these...

all tt i had been doing issit nt enuff?
can u put urself in my shoes...
feel how i feel...
see my fear...
taste my pain...
and the heavily wounded heart?
i cried...

i kw it i publish this,
this will be the end...
i cried...

i dun wan to have any breakup anymore...
coz a part of me still wan u...
i cried...

till now i still haven recieve any msg n ur call...
i cry...
but there is no more tears...
anymore...

watever i do...
breakup is all i recieve...
issit becoz of me makin it easier for u to treat me like this?
so fierce, so crude and so ridiculous time..
i need a lil sympathy...
tt u give ur frenz...
can u see that im scarred all over...
can u see that im tearing...
do u kw how many silent tears i shed?

humans are nv satisfied says:
sms u oso nv reply
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
ya?
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
u still angry
humans are nv satisfied says:
funny right
humans are nv satisfied says:
i call u then u kup my phone
humans are nv satisfied says:
nv even tell mi wad happen
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
ntg happen
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
=]
humans are nv satisfied says:
funny right?
humans are nv satisfied says:
knn
humans are nv satisfied says:
can u dun lie anot
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
really ntg
humans are nv satisfied says:
zz
humans are nv satisfied says:
u make mi feel llike wadeva la
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
the show finish?
humans are nv satisfied says:
ya
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
kk
humans are nv satisfied says:
we break up?
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
y?
humans are nv satisfied says:
i cannot take it wen my gf keep things from me so i dun wish to go on
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
hm...
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
lil things only...
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
n there is ntgim keeping... no = no break?
humans are nv satisfied says:
wad u talking
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
im not keepin anything la
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
silly
humans are nv satisfied says:
forget it la
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
y din u call me ?
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
like now?
humans are nv satisfied says:
lol
humans are nv satisfied says:
y shud i?
humans are nv satisfied says:
i dun wish to let ppl kup my phone again
humans are nv satisfied says:
send sms talk to me lata
humans are nv satisfied says:
n nv tell mi wad happen
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
y the way u tok so crude now?
humans are nv satisfied says:
dunno
humans are nv satisfied says:
i feel u are juz taking back at me
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
i nv kup ur phone anymore...
humans are nv satisfied says:
its ok if u wan to keep things lo
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
u also...
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
like u say small lik things dun haf to say
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
n u say wats now...
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
u think ppl will say? if it's u?
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
will u say?
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
u kw wat fuckin happen?
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
do u kw????
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
haf u use ur heart to feel me????
humans are nv satisfied says:
??
humans are nv satisfied says:
i'm asking wad happen now wad
Zee ] mind rape[ says:
rudely
humans are nv satisfied says:
ok fine
humans are nv satisfied says:
i dun disurb u

i cry...
another steely knife of urs...
(after u re-read all these... how do u feel? wat if the role is switch...? i dunno how to show u ur attitude towards me... im sorry... it might be my fault... i really dunno anymore...)

y din u ask...
guess after reading...
u will kw...
it's so hard tokin to u baby...
i was hoping u will ask...
i realise im so stupid...
like a fool...
i wun say goodbye... i nv will...
coz once i say...
i kw i will be askin u back...
and i really dun wan too...
im so fucking bloody hurt...
tt smt i dun even kw why im askin u back...
im so hurt tt i cant feel love...
but i dunno why i stay...
when we are back, i cried silently...

mayb...
i cant bear to...
but now if i dun let go...
more hurts will come...
u make me feel that i cant share and tell you things
abt me...

i cry....

again...

guess u r rite...
tt this is the best for us...
coz u r alwys

rite....

walking a way.....

I loved at 1:50 AM