Love is blind

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i had a gf...
she can flare at me...
n next moment,
pretend ntg had happened...
im at the receiving end...
yup.. i flare...
but i had to spend so much time just to make peace...
i am to blame...
coz im the one who made all these happened...

i was like wow...
u came n tok to me...
n expect me to be happy...
can u rmb when this kinda things happen to u...
how have u reacted?
imma to blame...

i already so upset...
when slping with u...
all i heard were tsk tsk tsk...
fine...
i feel so in love den...
what gf is for?
i dun even feel love...
its me who snatch the blanket...
n u think i kw and i wan?
im slping..
its not as if im awake...
i am to blame again...
inside my head...
i was thinkin...
what have i done wrong...
it all happened when im slping????

colleague said...
will u ever apologize...
in my mind i was like...
NEVER...
fat hope and slim chance...
it will never be ur fault...

boss can flare at u when working...
if its me?
lets break...
but i can still see u jking with em...
like ntg had happened...
WOW...
am i ur girlfriend?

i feel more lika shit...
going thailand?
i was thinkin...

shld i?
coz every now and den u keep breakin up with me..
i dun wan history to repeat u kw?
n see?
i knew it...
and i am lucky...

this time isnt my fault i kw...

coz u came n tok to me..
this only happened when u kw its ur fault...
den said u wanna break up?

this prove wat?
my fault or urs...
we will still break up...
on the end...
u make me sound like its my fault...
coz i walk away n shun u whenever u wanna tok?
hahaha

i am ok...

love is telling me smtg tt i dunno...
love is all abt breaking up, trying to gain more attention?
im stronger with every break up...
i dun even bother to wait for ur calls or smses...
coz i kw u wldnt...
i dun even feel enthu...
those passion had gone...
so long ago...
i nv even look forward to meet u up...
or for ur msges...
or even an oversea trip...
smt i dun even kw whats my feeling towards u...
making love seem so hmm....
loveless? and for the sake of doing...?
i nv look forward to any thing anymore...
i feel tt im totally dead after my bday...
all the tsk tsk...
all that had happened...
all the feeling tt had bottled inside...
all the grieves i cant leak but swallow inside...
i cant even tell u what i dislike abt u...
coz u will ask for BREAKUP??
i going crazy soon if it din end...

i cud have make myself feeling better den to coax u for hours n hours...
while me?
if u flare i had to swallow everything...
coz i dun wan it to end?
right now...
i dun even bother...
really...

i only cry coz i feel tt i had wasted so much time to coax u...
to ask u back..
and me???
i dun even feel love...

n do u kw?
have u even bother how i feel?
u dun even kw whether im happy or sad...
n i cry for this too...
if my friends can see the changes in me... why cant u?

i feel so happy tt u celebrated with my parents...
at least they accept u?
the cake tt u order they even bother to collect.
i am so happy for once...
it had been a long time tt i feel gd abt us...
i see the r.s is moving a lil at least...

this time im giving up everything...
giving up my hopes on u...
given up this love...

my bad...
im sorry...
i am to blame...

I loved at 11:40 PM 0 Comments

if treated u badly causes all ur new friends...
i cud have do tt long ago...

thanks for letting me feel this way...
and i dunno why i cant cry anymore...

this the 1st time i feel tt my tears are all wasted...

n u think tt ur the only one who cried there?

I loved at 2:58 AM 0 Comments

i cry...
for those love i alwys cudnt get...

i cry...
for not being understand...

i cry...
not because we ended...

I loved at 2:51 AM 0 Comments

why ur msn suddenly has got so many friends...
u check on me?

anything more disappointed den this?
i flaring at u.. but so?
do u have to put ur msn on who live near u?
do u have to exchange ur num?

lonely?
tt ur reason...
but i feel more lika crap..

so there is someone who talk to u till falling aslp...
WOW!!! AMAZING...
ANOTHER THING I HAD FOUND OUT...
clap~ clap~

what i am doing...
flaring...
u?
kwing more guys...

i flare so u find more guys to share ur woes?
no friend?
haha...
guys is a better approach isnt it?
good for u...

its ok still u kw...
but when we are ok?
did u bother to stop all these?
no...
more contact are popping out only...

wee WEE...
nice 1...
at least...
now...
i dun blame it on myself totally...

letting u go...
is

so

much easier...

I loved at 2:42 AM 0 Comments

i was angry...
n u said...
i kw ur angry coz ya jealous...
i was feeling happy...
coz u understand me...

n dunno why i feel love...
the feeling is great...
but its only once in awhile...

I loved at 2:14 AM 0 Comments

she push...
so...
tt make me pull...

i dreamt...
of someone...
and den i realised...
tt i've not feel like this...
for quite some time...

i felt special...

i dreamt...
i flared...
tt someone made me feel good again...
i've not feel like this for awhile...
i realised...

i flared, you flared
so i coaxed u...
but u said no one ask me to...

my fault ur fault...
i coaxed you...
i pleaded you...

and i cant forget what u said to me...
yup it falls...
how to be in love with someone...
who are alwys on the verge of breaking up with you...
nasty words is another thing...

this time...
i will be quiet...
i wun cried...
its not alwys how u feel...
where is me?

when i flared...
what u do?
there is one thing i needed from u...
desperately...

u...
i will nv bother to wait for a msg or a call...
u...
love song is never urs...
u...
love?

ur love just make me ponder...
do u really love me?

want me?

its alwys my fault...

even if urs...
u will never say sorry...

u shld kw...
this is u...

and this is me...

now...

i will nv wan a love who is alwys keeping me in suspend...

me...
i rather spend my bday alone...

me...
im feeling so carefree...

me...
its all abt me now...

i never kw that letting go is so easy...

i dun wan to owe u for the rest of ur life...

dreams...
our dreams...
our beautiful dreams...
even our future...
yup...

im

giving

up...

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