What has love
Got to do
With

Morality?

Thursday, July 17, 2008:::


I loved at 2:35 AM
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::: "you just have to be strong"

i tried really hard...
to 4get what she had done to me...

i tried so hard...
but unappreciated...

coz of tt it made me flared...
i get moody...

i cried at night...
but tried to be happy...
inside i kw...
all that were juz on the surface...

i tried to treat her nice...
i tried to stay sweet...
i tried to sustain my love for her...
the one i used to treasure so much...
i tried...
i even tried to 4get wat had happened...
but i cant...
all tt she is giving me...
smt i thot it shld be the other way...

in my heart...
she is juz like the rest...
i tried... but still im thinkin this way...

what had i done to deserve all these...
she blamed it on my anger...
i blame myself for tt...
but the real reason was...
wasnt really tt...
afterall...

i kw this 2 mth..
i wasnt too nice...
coz i get real down...
wat she had done...
really drive me crazy...
im so afraid...

i tried to hard...
but i kw...
i cant be sweet...
i cant treat her nice...
i cant love her...
tt much...
or rather how i used to...

we said tried...
but still she was givin me attitude...
i tried to be nice...
so?
for wat she did...
she really dun deserve any of my tolerance...
dun deserve any...
really...

i met my classmate...
she tok to me abt love...
abt her love...
she was so wrong...
but so so rite...

i was like hey...
im better off alone...
im happier now...
maybe coz of the alcohol...
i dun like being tied dwn anyway... haha...
i have my plan for future...
coz of u.. im pushing em aside...
rite now...
im gonna accomplish em!
one by one...
thinkin of tt...
i feel so alive...
i can do watever i wan...
its definitely gonna be FUN...
i swear...
LOL!

im not gonna dwell over smtg tt wasnt really my fault...
it wasnt my fault anyway...
letting u go of tt u will be happy?
nah...
it will be like...
letting u go make me happy...
u kw this kinda feeling...
im feeling gd...
im strong enuff like u alwys say... haha...


i almost gonna text u like i love u...
pls dun treat me this way...
hey hey.. after a long fight...
nah...
wat she had done...
she dun deserve me doing all these...
why shld i?
thou she had been nice..
treating me the way tt she feel like it was a big deal...
im glad...
but not satisfy...
haha... coz of wat u did...
gRRR...
this is bad...
not a healthy r.s...
stayin as frenz will be great...

coz i dun deserve alil of her cold treatments.. haha
yup.. i really dun...
i can blog watever i wan w.o being qn.
wOOO...
tts life...
really...
att is juz too...
hmmm... boring!
i dun wan this love... this r.s to turn me into monster...
it dun worth abit...
coz of wat she had done...

ohhh... stop saying tt!!!
i really cant help it...
coz i thot u were differ from the rest...
i juz dun haf a luck for love i guess...
doesnt matter...
bOOO!

we still can be frenz...
we are better this way...

I loved at 1:55 AM
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Wednesday, July 16, 2008:::

nah... i dun blog now...
coz it makes me bleed...

i keep runnin...
runnin away from problems...
from what had happened...

im yelling inside...
yellin for all tt i dun deserve...
from what u had done...

my mind is bursting...
but it nv burst the unbearable memories away...
our memories...

i dun blog...
coz it makes me bleed...

and if i were to bleed...
we will definitely split...

im tired...
for being who i am...
i swear...

who can feel me?
hear me?

our love have turn me into a
monster...

I loved at 12:18 AM
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